Sad

Last Saturday, a good friend told me that Mr. Frog has started seeing someone else. This good friend learned about this from Mr. Frog, himself. There is only way to describe how I feel about this. SAD.

I am sad for how he had misinterpreted my desire to point him to the right direction as "manipulation" and a "desire to change him." I am sad for all the issues that we glossed over and which turned our relationship for the worse. I am sad how these issues ultimately caused his permanent distance. I am sad how his wrong perception of me left me out in the cold, for good. Most of all, I am sad that I cannot seem to get myself out of this agonizing hellhole. It never seems to end!

Like what I told our good friend, however, I do not regret being true to the assignment that God gave me in Mr. Frog's life... that is, to point him to the right direction, despite the grave personal cost. While he has decided to open himself to a new relationship, he has also gone on to sort out the personal issues which became the divisive crux between us. He is even going to church again, consistently, every Sunday. And he is now seeing a spiritual mentor to help him sort out the issues in his heart.

If only all these good things will stop the sadness I am feeling. If only.