It's (Almost Nearly) Closing Time

Last Sunday was the best I've had, since Mr. Frog left. (Left me out in the cold is more like it). For the first time since then, I was smiling, again. With other people, like family and friends. And, boy, did it feel good. :o) That I can now smile, again, without him indicates that my heart is almost over him and that I'm almost, nearly totally healed!

Yeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyy! :oD

To start with, I was already happy, before he came along. Contrary to how my mom wants me to feel about the current state of my civil status, the fact is I was happy and content being a 29-year-old single, before Mr. Frog came along.

Now that he made the curtain call, I'm back to being that happy and content turning-30-this-year single. Is that a crime? WHY can't people just be happy for me? WHY does my mom have to plead that I get married already so she can have more grandchildren than what she knows what to do with! Ugh.

At least. At the very least, I'm now at peace with myself and back to being happy.

More than getting over Mr. Frog, what counts more are the very important lessons I learned through my difficult predicament with him. These are:

a. No matter how hard the blow, love from God, family and friends gave me the strength to bounce back--even during ugly days, as a result of depression, ranting, raving and so much tears. Love you, guys! Thank you SO much for having put up with my really bad hair days. But I love you more for putting up with him. ;o)

b. Love of the people mentioned above (including their prayers) also made "forgetting," easier--although, sa tutoo, how can I ever forget Mr. Frog. Beneath his bull-frogness also lie some very lovable and admirable qualities. I love him and that's that. Kahit hindi na maging "kami." :o)

c. Never have I fully learned to "let go and let God" until I hit this emotional brick wall. From then on, His grace became real, as in practical real. I learned to thank God at the end of each day, simply for surviving it, without causing more damage to my already damaged sanity. :oP

d. I realized the truth in Doc Ganda's very wise words. That I should not lose myself, in loving Mr. Frog. Had I lost "me"... nakakaloka! I would've become a doormat giving in to his every desire and whim, kahit siguro 'di na tama. Result? One very trampled self-esteem and highly probably, a very sad and miserable existence. Kami nga, pero sad naman ako. :o(

e. Last, but definitely not the least, I came to realize that I am Precious. Surely God did not preserve me this long to just end up with any jerk! This also means that any guy who won't go out of his way to woo and win me does not deserve even a nanu-second of my time. Hah!

Conclusion? I love you, Mr. Frog. But for now, goodbye. I hope there will come another time for us... after God and humility have gotten through to you. God-willing. I have so much faith in you to not believe that you won't come around to becoming a better person on the inside. I believe NO ONE is too old or too set in his ways to change. You, of all people, should know this. Who you are is what you believe you are, 'di ba? I don't care if you're 40. I just know you can improve.

Besides? I'm wielding the most effective weapon in the whole wide world, fighting for you, on my knees.

Lastly, know that I believe in you, no matter what. I have not stopped loving you and that is that. I love you. Goodbye. For now. :o)