Things I Want to Ask God NOW

Recent chain of events had led me to a series of why"s. Thing is, the phrase "only God knows why" applies to most if not all my recent circumstances, particularly those involving my heart.

If I can only go see God right now I'll ask Him to answer and explain the following:

1. How do I move on, if I am still a prisoner of my own heart?
2. Why did you let me love, only to make me let go in the end?
3. What was my purpose in his life? Why did you put me there?
4. Did I fulfill that purpose?
5. Did I make a dent in his life, if at all?
6. What mark did I leave in his heart, his soul?
7. Will he ever get well, again? If so, how long will it take?
8. Why do the men I love always end up leaving me?
9. What was his purpose in my life?
10. When will I stop loving him? Is there a quick way to forget him?
11. His return: For love or for friendship?
12. My pending reply: For friendship or goodbye?
13. When will you rescue me from this emotional limbo?
14. What is it YOU want to happen now between the two of us?
15. Will You please speak loud and clear about it?