The Promise

"The righteous face many troubles, but the Lord rescues them from each and every one." (Psalms 34:19)

Just when I was starting to get my groove back two weeks ago down it went crashing, again, last Sunday until today, much like Eddie Gil's political ambition. Or is it inhibition? (He he). Er... ehem.

Nothing funny 'bout my crash and burn experience, though. I am seriously sad, like never before in this first full month of not having seen Mr. Frog. I guess I'm sad, because the longer I don't see him, the more real having probably lost him is becoming. It doesn't help that the remaining hope I'm hanging on to is no thicker than a hairline. All the more, it doesn't help that I'm greatly missing him.

While it may be true that his SMS two Wednesdays ago meant to convey his intention of staying, I've decided to refuse believing in it and focus, instead, on releasing myself from my romantic ambition or inhibition. Wow. Guess who I've something in common with. Ha ha. (Joke lang po, Tito Eddie. Inaaliw ko lang ang planeta ko)!

I've repeatedly asked the Lord to help me let go of my feelings for Mr. Frog, if Mr. Frog is not in His plan for my life, anyway, as far as a serious, committed, romantic relationship is concerned.

The Lord did not promise He'll take away my love for him. But He did promise that He'll rescue me. Whether that means taking the feelings away or something else, I don't know. I hope to know when I hie off to Clark Field, Pampanga this Saturday and, hopefully, be one "baggage" lighter by the time I leave for home.