Through the Looking Glass

It's a perfectly good Friday night to waste, working late, again. I was supposed to have gone out with a friend I had not seen in a while. Yet here I am, still at the office, working but not quite working. My mental faculty has lapsed into auto shutdown mode... at least as far as real work goes.

Thoughts of wanting to get away are swimming in my head, instead--a sure sign of emotional fatigue. Could be an effect of having eaten two slices of cake after dinner, earlier--another sure sign of emotional fatigue. Kunwari na lang I'm celebrating Ligaya's birthday, today. Yeah, right.

What am I doing wasting away like this when life was so, SO alive shortly after I started seeing Mr. Frog last year! Why don't the trees look as vibrant, anymore, compared to when I was happily with him. Could it be that like Alice, I had been staring through the looking glass, all this time? Tipong, I think he really likes me, when in truth, he doesn't like me all that much? Not enough to pursue me, at least.

I don't know. My mind is still on auto shutdown mode. Hopefully, tomorrow, I'm on my normal mode, again, and hopefully, too, out of my looking glass.